[dropcap]I’m[/dropcap] only human and it’s only natural to make mistakes. No one is perfect and perfection is a subjective state of mind/reality. I’m on a life journey to be a better/good man – to improve myself and live a righteous life; to work hard and be kind/compassionate; to be the best that I can be. But it’s not always easy. Life is full of adversities/pitfalls and temptations. And sometimes I make mistakes. And sometimes it’s the same old errors repeated. From bad habits to addictions. But I’ve learnt to forgive myself and start/try again. There’s no point in punishing myself with hate/guilt or depression. God/the universe is very kind/graceful. Just ask for forgiveness and learn from our mistakes and move on forward/up.
This year, I’m using a book diary again. It’s perfect to jot down sketches, notes, to-dos and reminders. I also make a note of dates of my bad habits/mistakes. This works as a record/constant reminder to avoid/resist them. I feel proud when months have passed and the vices were not repeated. But sometimes they do. And I feel bad for it. But I simply try again each time I fall. With time and commitment, these mistakes will be few and far between. Practice and persistence makes perfect. And the more we try the better we’ll become. Imagine yourself as a lotus rising above the muddy waters. Keep pushing through to transcend our transgressions. Meditation is good for this. It helps centre/purify the mind. Dad once said, “It’s easy to be bad but hard to be good”. Very true but we’re all humans and we learn from our mistakes. No one is perfect so don’t be too hard on yourself or others.
Cynthia and Pet
Thank you Ngeun for such a thought provoking, reflectively beautiful and honest post.
You inspire us both with your humility, honour and purpose. Your new art work/picture here is sublime and outstanding. It captures this sense of reflection perfectly.
It is super art!
Forgiving ones self and having a laugh at ourselves is greatly important too. Personally, I would be a total nervous wreck if I didn’t forgive myself for all of my misgivings. There are too many to list! Little by little though we improve every day. 😇
Keep up the outstanding work and remember, not to be too harsh on yourself. We love you way too much for any of that.
You are an outstanding and wonderful human being for which we and the whole world are very blessed to have.
We certainly appreciate all of the love that you bring to us.
🌈❤️🐣🎶💞
Love eternally.
Cynthia and Pet.
Ngeun
Thanks Cynthia and Pet for your very lovely and supportive comment. Yes it’s true, it’s good to better ourselves when we can but at the same time it’s good to have balance in our lives too. <3
Cynthia and Pet
We think you’ve nailed it in one there Ngeun. I know that I am a long long way off being an angel as of yet. It’s fun learning along the way and I don’t think that the universe would begrudge us a little fun occasionally as it is all experience. 👁
Pet says she loves a little fun too.
Thanks for your reply Ngeun. We love you!!
💖💖🐶
Ngeun
Dear Cynthia and Pet, both of you are perfect and my angels! I agree, we all love a little fun fun fun. <3
David
Your post is so thoughtful, atend poignant. I believe that the people who wake up each day wanting to be a better person are usually the people who are good; they are people I want to spend time with. Thank you, Ngeun, for your honesty and trust.
Ngeun
Thanks very much David for your kind comments and support. I appreciate it. The world seems less daunting when there’s love and kindness around. It’s nice to set a good example and help out where/when we can. :)